Archive for January, 2006

LEFT EYE

SUNDAY WHEN I WOKE, IT FELT LIKE I HAD EYE BOOGERS OR SAND IN MY LEFT EYE, BUT I WAS 2 WEAK 2 REACH MY EYE. MARK & A FRIEND AT CHURCH ASKED ME IF I WAS OK-MY EYE WAS ALL RED. I FELT FINE, BUT AT THE EBD OF CHURCH (3 HOURS), I WAS STRUGGLING 2 KEEP MY LEFT EYE OPEN. MARK TOOK OUT MY CONTACTS, & I WAS REMINDED WHY, 4 MANY REASONS, I HATE GLASSES SO MUCH. BY THE TIME MY FRIEND VISITED, I COULD BARE;Y OPEN MY EYE, SO EVEN THOUGH I USUALLY REFUSED OTHERS PRESCRIPTION MEDS & MARK HAD GIVEN ME ALLERGY MEDS (WHICH I FELT WAS PART OF MY PROB.), SOMETHING MORE WAS WRONG. AFTER MY FRIEND REASSURED ME HER PRESCRIPTION MEDS 4 PINK EYE WAS CLEAN, I HAD HER GIVE ME SOME. IT FELT A LITTLE BETTER, BUT A COUPLE HOURS LATER AT MY PARENT’S HOUSE, IT KILLED 2 OPEN MY EYE. SINCE I COULDN’T OPEN 1 EYE ALONE, THERE I SAT BY THE FRONT DOOR, UNMOVING & EYES CLOSED.

WHEN WE WENT HOME EARLY, I HAD 2 SOMEHOW TYPE & SEND SOME EMAILS BY MON. (I HAVE 20+ EMAILS-SOME FROM 12/20 & ABOUT 5 JOURNAL ENTRIES W/REMINDER NOTES 2 FILL IN LATER, SO WHILE I’M SWAMPED, THESE HAD 2 BE DONE THAT NIGHT) SO AFTER SOME MEDS, I LET MY EYE REST SOME, THEN MANAGED 2 OPEN MY RT. EYE & SLOWLY GO FROM MY ROOM, DOWN AN ELEVATOR (WHICH I CAN DO ALONE NOW!), 2 MY COMP. & TYPE THOSE EMAILS. ALL WAS DONE W/MY LEFT EYE CLOSED & WATERING, MY RT. EYE OPEN. IT MADE ME SO SICK 2 MY TUMMY, I WAS SURE I WOULD THROW-UP & WROTE A HURRIED LAST EMAIL, THEN WENT 2 BED AROUND 9:40. I DIDN’T SLEEP AT ALL. IT HURT SO BAD-MY EYE WATERED & IT FELT LIKE DAGGERS IN MY EYE. U WOULD THINK THIS WAS A CAKEWALK AFTER MY GUTS WERE PULLED OUT REMOVING THE FEEDING TUBE & BEING AWAKE WHEN I WAS CUT OPEN 4 A SURGERY, BUT THE PAIN WAS DIFF.

MON. I SAW A DOCTOR, & PAIN IS AGAIN BEARABLE & I CAN OPEN MY EYE SOME, THOUGH IT IS HARD 2 SEE RT. & TYPING/READING IS SLOWER.

OVERDUE PIC FROM HALLOWEEN

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AFTERTHOUGHT…

RITA SAID IT RIGHT WHEN SHE WROTE:

?It always makes me think about what I am doing in my life to make things better for myself and others.?

IT IS A MAIN REASON I WRITE. PEOPLE WHO R HANDICAPPED R SEEN DIFF. THAN THEY R. -SHOULDN?T BE, BUT THEY R. IT CAN BE VERY HURTFUL, BUT U LEARN 2 EXPECT IT-ELEMENTARY-AGED KIDS R THE WORST. PARENTS SAY, ?DON?T STARE!? I THINK THEY SHOULD KNOW OF HANDICAPPED PEOPLE LONG BEFORE THAT STATEMENT!

HANDICAPPED PEOPLE ALSO TEND 2 SEE THINGS IN A NEW LIGHT, & I HOPE 2 SHARE THAT PERSPECTIVE.

LET ME BE CLEAR, I DO NOT INTEND 2 HURT ANY1 BUT MAY BY TYPING MY THOUGHTS-IE. MY GRANDMA?S CAREGIVER MEANS VERY WELL, BUT SEEING SOME THINGS MADE ME HAVE MEMORIES. MOST CAREGIVERS DIDN?T LEARRN ASL, SO COMMUNICATION WAS NOT SOMETHING I LOST. WATCHING HER JUST REMINDED ME HOW FORTUNATE I AM IN MY SITUATION. ALSO, I DO NOT KNOW ALL MY GRANDMA?S NEEDS-MAYBE SOMEDAY I 2 WILL APPRECIATE SOME1 CUTTING MY MEAT! FUNNY THING 4 ME, WHO EVEN NEEDS HER SALAD CUT BY SOME1, 2 SAY!

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