JENNY’S NEWS

I’VE NOTICED A WAY TIGER, R CAT, & I ARE SOMEWHAT THE SAME:

TIGER'S ROOM & "KITTY TIME OUT" R IN THE LAUNDRY ROOM. TIGER CAN SOMETIMES LET HIMSELF OUT OF THE LAUNDRY ROOM–LIKE IF HE HEARS US & WANTS 2 GET OUT, SUPER BAD…IT MOTIVATES HIM, & SINCE HE WANTS OUT REALLY BAD, & NO1 LETS HIM OUT, HE HAS LEARNED 2 DO IT HIMSELF.

I CAN TOTALLY RELATE. SO MANY THINGS, I’VE LEARNED OUT OF NECESSITY, BECAUSE, LIKE TIGER, I CAN BE ALONE RIGHHT WHEN I NEED HELP, &, LIKE TIGER MAY “MEOW” AT THE DOOR, I’M NOT UNDERSTOOD, BY MY GRUNTS AS 2 WHAT I NEED!

A GREAT EXAMPLE: A WHILE BACK, I WAS TRYING 2 C SEVERAL PHOTO CDS THAT WERE SENT 2 ME. I WAITED SEVERAL DAYS 4 SOME1 2 HAVE A HUGE CHUNK OF TIME THAT WAS NEEDED 2 HELP ME. I FINALLY DECIDED 2 WAIT UNTIL THE DAY MY CAREGIVER, CARA, CAME. SHE PUT A CD IN, & LEFT 2 WORK ON LAUNDRY 4 MY KIDS—SHE HAD TONS OF LAUNDRY —SO MUCH, I FELT GUILTY RINGING MY BELL 2 GET HER ATTENTION. SO, I CHOSE 2 WAIT 4 HER. AFTER LIKE 20 MIN., I GOT TIRED OF WAITING. I COULD'VE RANG, BUT KNEW SHE WAS BUSY. IT WAS SUCH A SMALL TASK, I DECIDED 2 TRY IT MYSELF B4 I RANG. LIKE TIGER'S "MEOWS,"I'M SURE I GRUNTED AS I TRIED 2 FIND THE STRENGTH 2 LIFT MY ARM 2 CHANGE CDS (4 SOME REASON, NOISE/GRRUNTS MAKE ME STRONGER). I KNOW CARA HEARD & CAME. SHE OFFERED 2 DO IT, BUT LET ME DO IT WHEN I REFUSED. (I WAS SO CLOSE!) LIKE TIGER'S WILL 2 GET OUT OF A ROOM, I FOUND THE STRENGTH 2 LIFT MY ARM 2 CHANGE CDS!

ALSO LIKE TIGER, THERE R TIMES I CAN'T DO IT, & RESORT 2 JST SITTING BY SOMETHING, & BUILDINGGGUP THE STRENGTH 2 DO WHAT I NEED 2 DO. I ADMIT, MY STUBBORNNESS SHOWS: I KNOW I HAVE DONE IT ONCE, SO EVEN IF I'D APPRECIATE A BREAK & HAVE HELP, I REFUSE 2 ASK 4 HELP. BUT, LIKE TIGER, WHEN PUSH COMES 2 SHOVE, SOMETHING I COULDN'T DO A MINUTE AGO, SUDDENLY IS POSSIBLE, & LIKE TIGER, I OPEN A DOOR 2 FREEDOM.

WHEN I DISCOVERED I COULD SUCK, I STATED THAT THIS "opens worlds for me.” 2 EXPAND ON THAT THOUGHT:

I USE A SPECIAL SQUEEZE BOTTLE 2 DRINK. IT'S ACTUALLY MEANT 4 FOOTBALL PLAYERS WHEN THEIR HELMETS R ON. I NEED IT 2 HAVE ANY LIQUIDS, BECAUSE THEN LIQUIDS R SQUEEZED IN MY MOUTH, WHICH I SWALLOW. I BEGAN W/DROPS OF LIQUID, SO THESE GULPS SEEM HUGE.

ANYWAY, WHY I SAID THIS "opens worlds for me”:

• IT GIVES MY FAMILY FREEDOM. IF WE R ASKED SPONTANEOUSLY BY SOME1 2 GO 2 DINNER, WE CAN GO & NOT CHECK 1ST IF I HAVE MY CUP, & IF IT'S NOT THERE, I DON'T HAVE 2 BE THE "BAD GUY" WHO SAYS NO BECAUSE I NEED 2 DRINK IF THE FOOD IS DRY & IF THE FOOD IS STICKING 2 THE ROOF OF MY MOUTH.
• I CAN GO PLACS & NOT WORRY IF MY CUP IS THERE. I CAN TAKE SM. SIPS WHENEVER & WHEREVER–FAST DURING A MEAL, IF I'M AT CHURCH, MOVIE THEATER (CAN'T WAUT 2 TRY W/POPCORN).
• I CAN HAVE SODA POP, IF I DESIRE IT.

I’M NOT GREAT–1 SIP IS SMALL, HARD 2 DO, & TAKES A WHILE. I DOUBT IT'S STRONG ENOUGH 4 A MILKSHAKE (WHO CARES—COLD STUFF GIVES ME A BRAIN FREEZE ANYWAY!) BUT THAT IS HOW IT ALWAYS STARTS: SMALL. THEN I PRACTICE. I JUST NEED THE ABILITY…AFTER ALL, EVERYTHINNG I DO, STARTED W/JUST MOVING ATHUMB!

I JUST GOT A A CUP W/A STRAW THAT HOOKS 2 MY W/C, SO I CAN PRACTICE SUCKING. (IT'S NOW A COMPLIMEMT 2 SAY, :I SUCK!") I THINK I'll BECOME A BIGGER MOVIE FAN NOW, SINCE I CAN PRACTICE FOR 2 HRS. STRAIGHT! COINCIDENTLY,WE MADE THE STRAW REQUIRE ME 2 ALSO PRACTICE TURNING MY HEAD THE DIRECTION THAT'S HARDER 4 ME, & PROB. ALSO STRENGTHENS MY NECK!

SORRY. WAS TYPING 2 MUCH 2 FIND TIME 2 TYPE A POST.

I OFTEN STRESS ABOUT HOW BUSY I AM. I CAN'T EXPLAIN HOW BUSY I CAN GET BUT MY WORKLOAD SEEMS 2 DOUBLE, DUE 2 TYPING W/1 FINGER & DOUBLE VISION. I DO NOT SIT DOWN & WRITE A POST—BBESIDES ALWAYS SITTING (HA! HA! I AM EITHER "BAD"—YOUR FAULT, DAD–OR HILARIOUS!), I TAKE DAYS 2 TYPE STUFF:

I BEGIN W/CHOPPY THOUGHTS. NOTES, REALLY, 2 LATER SPARK MY MEMORY. I ADD A LITTLE EVERYTIME I READ IT, ESP. ADDING WORDS I CONSIDERED UN-IMPORTANT, AT 1ST.

BUT I'VE DECIDED 2 TURN OVER A NEW LEAF, & STRESS LESS & RECALL LESS 2 STRESS ABOUT TYPING. I STARTED 2 RECENTLY RECALL LESS, & I WAS DELIGHTED 2 C HOW A STRESSFUL, BUSY DAY, BECAME A DAY W/FREE TIME 2 SCRAP A PG. IN MY MIND!

THING IS, I REALIZED THAT NOT 2 LONG AGO, I WASN'T BUSY, & OH, HOW POINTLESS IT FELT 2 BE ALIVE, WHEN I COULDN'T EVEN WATCH TV WELL, DUE 2 MY VISION. BUSINESS IS A BLESSING, & I FELT I SHOULD ENJOY, INSTEAD OF STRESS, THAT I HAVE REGAINED ENOUGH 2 ACTUALLY FEEL BUSY AGAIN! & THOUGH I'M GREATLY LIMITED NOW, I FEEL MY LIFE ISN'T POINTLESS. I WOULD PREFER FEELING BUSY, SO I'VE DECIDED 2 ENJOY THAT FEELING.